Bottomless Pit?

My mindset right now- life is holding me back.

Do you ever get that? That sometimes you just feel like you can't do what you want to do? I know I said in one of my previous posts that I'm going to start appreciating school but I don't see school as something that is aiding my life, I see it as something that is stopping me from doing the things I want to do.

I want to make music and tour, I want to be on a stage show, I want to write a book, or a play or protest! But I'm only 15, no one is going to hire me or take me seriously. I honestly feel like I have no rights.

I go through stages of this, sometimes I want to stay young and priority-less for the rest of my life and other times I just can't think of anything worse. I want to get out into the world, I want to make change, I WANT TO LIVE! Not just keep on living this cassette player that is my life, constantly moving but not changing. I want the world to change but I can't do it, I don't know how and no one will let me try.

I guess maybe a way I could make myself feel better is to set goals? I'll at least feel like I've accomplished something right?

GOALS
1. Finish my book- see it in stores soon people!
2. Write a musical- I know I can do this
3. Clean my room- baby steps

I know this post was a whole jumble of random stuff that probably makes no sense, but I'm pretty sure no one reads this anyway!

Thats all for now, I'll speak to you soon!

Fuck, life is monogamous. I just want to live!